(The Third Man, 1950; Finnish for "a stop")
Hello. It has been a while since I posted on here.
That is due to several factors - general lethargy, this being an inferior outlet to WordPress, excessive listening to Rich Gang's "War Ready" - but the majority reason of this is that my work at my media blog, In Appreciation Of, is not only something I really have enjoyed doing, but has also begun to accumulate a decent-enough viewership (about 53% more last month than this blog has averaged over its course of time).
I am currently in my penultimate semester at the University of Tennessee, and if there is one thing I have learned in college, it's to pick something you enjoy doing and do that thing as long as you can mine it for what it's worth. I enjoy writing. I enjoy writing about media, and I enjoy writing as a marketer, proposer, and a quasi-socialite. I enjoy the business side of things. I enjoy a keyboard, a Kinks album, and a steady supply of water and fried chicken.
This past few months, I have realized something else: I never particularly enjoyed writing about Will.
It's nothing personal - I kind of like me, and the self-confidence issue I've had since birth is not quite as much of a problem now. It's just that writing about my own personal life is boring.
Why should I write about myself when I have the ability to tell stories that are much greater?
I stopped wanting to write about myself sometime in the spring, when I realized that I loved writing and hated trying to come up with descriptions about how my life was going. I don't need to tell you my story in a different way twice a month. I love Jesus, but trying to figure out what he was trying to tell me every two weeks was exhausting. I don't feel that that's what I'm here to do.
That's why writing about music for the last four months has made me feel much more positive about myself and my ability to write. Music is, after all, a gift from God. Each Psalm is a song. Exodus 15 records Moses and company as singing "a song of victory." Joshua 6 describes the walls of Jericho falling, soundtracked by trumpets.
Describing others' accomplishments for four months has given me a greater appreciation (no pun) for what the human mind can accomplish with its natural and spiritual gifts. Humans are deeply flawed individuals who come together to create harmonic productions that simply cannot be done without a greater hand.
In Appreciation Of has grown into an outlet where I am able to appreciate those accomplishments each week, and, for whatever reason, it has received very favorable reviews thus far. I am very grateful for every view of my writing I receive, because the patience one has to sit through arbitrary lists and rankings and Tim Hecker fawning is rather difficult.
In the year 2014, I have been approved to graduate from a world-famous university, become involved in a college-centered Bible study at a church, started and continued a relationship with a wonderful woman, eaten lots of food, lost and gained ten pounds, and got new glasses. Those are the essential facts, and writing more than that feels like a waste of space. There are better stories to tell, and I'm interested in hearing them and relaying them.
I do not know where I will be sitting and typing next October 3rd. It doesn't matter. What matters is the stories of others that have happened and will happen between now and next year.
Good night, and good luck. Enjoy, love, and appreciate your own renaissances. Don't think twice, it's all right.
Will